Just Realized

I did not realized that half of my Junior year is almost over until I just check my final performance in Acting class is coming. Different than before, I am now trying to discover a quiet performance style which can bring out the power of silent. I started working on characters who are quiet and dramatic since the beginning of this class, and I truly want to finish this class with my last super dramatic and sad monologue. When I was selecting monologues for final project, I was looking so many dramatic monologues, and I did not chose others because this one is the biggest challenge for me. My strength is not working so well this time because this is the first time ever I act in this emotion and background, I will talk more on how I accomplish this character, and what struggles I had when I was working on it.

I guess that you must be so confused about what emotion and background I said in last paragraph. Don’t worry, and let me explain. First of all, I selected two monologues for this project, and one of them is about love and another one is about death. However, I chose the one about death because I never tried before. After I read the script, I realized that It is much harder than I thought it would be because the script did not tell me anything about the background, so I had to find it on my own. The monologue is about a person telling one of the person he knew was committed suicide, and he sold her a ticket the other night before she died. When the first time I do this monologue I focused too much on the sadness and hopelessness part, but only these two could not be as effective and powerful as I wished. Then Ms. Guarino pointed out that I need to study more on character’s emotion, and I noticed that I should also feel guilty because I sold the ticket to her. Also, Abi told me that I should control how I play with the ticket and I can actually do more dramatic things with it for example throw it away at some lines. I will work on it more and more, and I will give you all a great performance.

I enjoyed this class so much so far, and I wish it will be better by ending it with all our best performance. I have tried few different quiet characters and I will try and work more in the future. I feel that the power of silent can be much powerful than yelling because It can gather audience’s attention well, and audience do hear and feel better. Also, when you are doing a dramatic monologue, some silent can make the emotion stay in audience’s heart longer, and when they think about it they will be, like “Oh my god, that’s so creepy. I didn’t know that! But now I see.” May be, I guess that I am a little tired to be angry all the time. Anyway, this is a great semester in this class, and I wish we all learned and improved our skills.