The "Day" is coming

https://youtu.be/_NTZhff3D6E

Since my freshman year I have been thinking when is the day I will be going to college, and now the day is almost in front of me. However, I got nervous and I don't want to go now. I feel like I am so not ready or I just want to stay here forever in this Acting class and our little black box theater. I finished another monologue which will also be my audition piece and fall play. I had a lot pressure before I do this final take, and I still feel like there are many things I can improve on, such as positions, pace, words focusing and body language.

From last class’ notes I changed my facial expressions and pace, and it had improved today’s production a lot, but it’s still not enough. The first thing I noticed is that I did not have a good positioning on stage. Because this will be in the fall play, I have to think how will I be able to position myself so I can make everyone feel almost the equal amount emotion from me. It will be one of the most important scene in the whole play, so where and how I present myself to the audience will be so effective. Another important thing I need to work on is my pace and words focusing, and I tried my best to fix it today, but I failed. I still had too many unnecessary stops and extra words emphases. For example, I stopped at like a girl then I said that’s all I remembered thinking which was so bad because it will be much more smoother. The last thing I want to fix is my body language which can be super helpful to the character. For intense, a college professor wouldn’t jump around; a high school student would’t move in a fancy way like Dr. Sacco and John Jiang wouldn’t leave VdP. That’s part of the thing I still need to put in as part of the character, so audience will have a better understanding of the character.

I hope by the “day” coming I will have this monologue 100% ready to go and make them all feel extremely sad! So far it was a great start of senior year, and I hope I can keep it up for the rest of the year!

Reflection

Last week I was still not so familiar with the script, so I was thinking a lot about my lines which influence my pace and emotion changes. Also my facial expression was a off the pace with my body movement and blocking. Another thing I realized that was the way I call Gretta my wife which is the most important word in this monologue,and it showed up 3 times. These three times can be perfect changing emotion point and dramatic pause. The last thing I noticed was my pronunciation and interactions. I didn't pronounce few words very clear, such as Esctacy. I also didn't have a good interaction withthe audience which should be the important part of the play. Along with my study about the character I will come up with more detail about this character, such as the breath the anger expression and move speed and physical condition 

It's been a long way!

Last week I started my last year’s journey at Cheshire Academy, when I look back in time I couldn’t help myself to say:” Wow, It’s been a long way!” I am now on my senior way to college which kind freaked my out at last summer, but now all I can feel is enjoying this journey, instead of being worried about the ending. I cannot how many times I have taken this acting class with Guarino. However, I always feel it’s the first time I am taking this class because I am changing and my point of view is changing. Today, as an actor I have accomplished so many things, and all I want is keep challenging and improve more and more.

I was the student who didn’t know what is monologue; I was the student who didn’t know theater at all; I was also the student who was too scared to speak. However, now I am taking the lead role in my school’s fall production The Dead. When I saw the cast list, I told myself that:” John you cannot screw up this time, and you better do your best!”. I confess that I wanted this opportunity so much, and I was also so worried that I might mass this up. Anyway, this week during acting class, I found another new thing. I thought my character development can be just general things and emotions. However, I was so wrong because the emotion and characteristic I gave to the character is so not real! Why it’s not real because our characteristics and emotions are from what we experienced which are all our memories without memory we are just robots reading lines with different tones. When Ms. Guarino asked me to write down character’s story, at that moment in my head all the picture and scene about this character were keeping appearing in my head. That was the moment I knew that why it was so hard to be in the character!

I am Mr. Darling, Curly, Trump, Mr. Dykeman, Gabriel and John Jiang. What makes these characters different was the story they have and memories they carried inside! They can be looking the same but audience can tell they are all different characters. I believe that this year I will finish with all great memories and make John Jiang this character even better!

Character

I am talking to the audience with all other prople behind me.

I am old around late 40's a Doctor in college has two kids and relationship with my wife hasn't been so well recently. Nice in suit.

At annule Christmas party before dinner when everyone's dancing and singing 

I want to find my love back and also curious and angry about my wife is probably having an affair because I see when she sang that song, she looked so young and lovely and being loved. However, I can tell it wasn't for me at all, and it all happened after she saw Micheal. She is the most beautiful woman I have even met and I love her so much that I can never see her with any other guys at all! When we first time met, that day I knew that I was in love with her, and that was the day I told myself that I had to marry her! I did and It was the most important and wonderful thing ever happened in my whole life! I still remember the the first time I kissed her under the moon on the beach; I can still feel our heart drum beating like a harmony; Every time I shut my eyes I can see her beautiful face which has been the first thing I see every morning over 20 years. However, now she is standing there singing beautifully than she even sang and it is for a no body from no where called Michael! Who is he?

I feel bad for the party and my relationship. And I feel this party is waste of time and kind want to end it, but with my wife's singing I want to gain her love back!

Proposal

September - December 18 weeks total

First Week: Open a digital portfolio and choose a serious monologue and a comedic monologue

Second Week: Finish chosen monologues and planning a directing piece + music piece

3rd-5th Week: Finish the directing and music work. Then choose two two person dialogue one comedic and one dramatic

6th-7th Week: Finish these two dialogues. Start working on live audition piece. Picking at least 4 different kinds of monologues includes comedy, tragedy, Shakspheare and serious one.

8th-12th Week: Mainly focus on the audition pieces

13th-15th Week: Working on some audition pieces again( The one which I don’t do well on), and Writing practice essays about theater.